I started this painting back in 2015 and then I stopped working on it. I’m not sure if I stopped because I didn’t like where it was going at the time, or if it was to painful to work on. I drew the sketch as a way to represent how I was feeling at the time. I was going through a lot with my Mom being in a nursing home in a minimal state. She had been in this position already going on 4 years. I was feeling trapped, like everything was on hold and I wasn’t able to move forward with my life at that time. I feel this captures all that in one image. Feeling confined like I couldn’t transform and fly free. My Mom passed away in 2017 and I know she is looking down on me proud of all that I have accomplished. She was my biggest fan!!! I just wish she was here to cheer me on, and I miss her dearly everyday.
I am glad I was able to bring myself to work on it again. It took several months but I finished it. My original idea was to use purples and blues for the wings and hair. I am glad I took a step back and decided to use a color I don’t use very often - Orange! I think that helped cheer up an otherwise sad subject. I also decided to use some Phosphorescent Green on the glow around her and the dots, so now it glows in the dark!